...of love, pain, blood, and tears...

Assalamu'alaikum (Peace be upon you)...

It finally arrived...
The day I sat for my final paper of my final semester as an undergraduate student...
I've been waiting for this moment to come...
I anticipated a lot of fireworks and fairytale-like ending...
I thought that I would jump and punch my fist high up in the air as soon as I'm out of the exam hall...

But it just didn't materialise...
There's a sense of indifference in me...
I felt nothing special...
It's just the same old day like before...

The barrier that stands beyond me and graduation is finally gone (almost...I have to wait for the exam result to come out)...
But still...
I felt empty...
No sense of excitement in me...
Not even one bit...

Probably because after almost six years in the comfort zone, I finally got out of it...
There's a whole new world standing in front of me...
A new horizon to be explored...
A new voyage...

Humans are afraid of the unknown...
I guess that's why I'm afraid...
Afraid of all the possibilities...
Afraid of what's waiting for me at the other side of the wall...

But..

Now it's not the time to think about what could've or should've been for the past 22 years of my life...
Now is the time to look ahead, think ahead, and hopefully, be ahead...

So long, undergrad life...